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You never held back the violence
You taught me how to be good
Your words unspoken in silence
And though I tried hard I did nothing the way I have should

There is a breath on my pillow
As I am bleeding alone
I see the drops on my window
I wonder how someone could tell this abyss is my home

But then I’m feeling guilty
And I try to take care of myself
I touch the empty inside me
I fill it with dreams that I borrowed from somebody else

After the rain
there is nothing left but a cracking silence
After the rain
there is no chance for change in a life full of tyrants

I wish I could not remember
I wish I vanished at night in a haze
In this pocket of embers
sometimes the war starts after the rain

I hear your steps on the carpet
Lurching to my retreat
This is where it all started
A secret that’s buried so deep underneath the white sheets

And when I cry you get angry
Stop the noise and keep still
And your eyes looking through me
And I’m lying awake while tuning myself unto your will

But then I’m feeling useless
And I try to be somebody else
I touch the empty inside me
I fill it with dreams that I do not allow to myself

After the rain
there is nothing left but a cracking silence
After the rain
there is no chance for change in a life full of tyrants

I wish I could not remember
I wish I vanished at night in a haze
In this pocket of embers
sometimes the war starts after the rain

And when the dreams have come
I feel so weak and numb
Cause deep inside my mind
I’m longing for another life

After the rain
there is nothing left but a cracking silence
After the rain
there is no chance for change in a life full of tyrants

I wish I could not remember
I wish I vanished at night in a haze
In this pocket of embers
sometimes the war starts after the rain